I followed Dorly’s work on Facebook. Each portrait was better than the next. I gaped at people who were already beautiful transforming into angelic creatures she captured with her camera. I continued to avoid the camera as I struggled with my own body image.
I was revising a rough draft of a novel and posting comments about the work on Facebook. I wrote, “I need to let these pages rest a few days before I contract a case of Edward Scissorhands.”
Dorly responded. “I feel the same when I’m editing photos. “
I typed back. “Editing – the work that is never completed.”
Dorly nudged me. “You need to visit me at the studio.”
Then I realized – I was the work that didn’t feel completed. I’d been waiting for
‘something else’ to happen. I still felt stuck in the editing process. I needed to find an ending so I could start at another beginning.
The Velveteen Rabbit was one of the first books I remember reading. As an adult, I cherished my tattered and worn copy. It was this particular quote that always brought me to tears. I thought it was the rabbit becoming real that would get me so emotional, but after booking my consultation with Dorly, the book’s message took on an entirely new meaning.
The best line of the book is, “You can’t become Unreal again. It lasts for always.”
I was Real before I lost the excess weight. I loved myself back to a healthy weight with a lot of work. Like the Rabbit, I’d taken a beating over a long time. His fur was my weight. His eyes falling out became my healing psyche. I was ready to show my Real.